Sigh huh, SUCH vast volume of heartache-heartbreak, I CAN'T even EVER verbally speak 2 the endless volume of SENSELESS USA-global bloodshed-death (s) = I'm NOT SELF checking out NOR am I going out (CEASED) like a coward-bitch) THUS SO I'm NOT giving up cuz there's no way but solely alone-ONLY (do or die trying) 4 Holy Trinity & WITHOUT or NEVER QUESTIONING HIM despite I'm a Daily & relentlessly Hard core, Luke 9:24-Hebrews 11:1-Luke 17:21-22 & Luke 12:51, Warrior allegiance, Christian Caliphate-Jihadism, wrath of Achilles, SELF denying, single-celibate (me NO shacking up NOR human breeding), tired, frail, straight-hetrosexual, alpha male old dying man - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qD-kq0U-U-4